little later.

I'm back to having nothing to do with myself. I'm so depressed right now, but I'm gonna type as though I'm talking to you and you had nothing to do with me being this way. I don't know what to do, Zach. And you don't even want to deal with me anymore. I feel so unloved and so hurt and so lonely and I feel like I could just break sometimes and then I feel so used in a way and so wrong like you couldn't even bring yourself to care about me this much or to love me anymore because I'm just a burden for somebody else to deal with now and it hurts really badly Zach. And I just don't know what to do. And I feel like I'm the pitiful little clingy thing you had to get rid of... That thing that I never wanted to be when we first got together but you were there and you needed me and when did that switch out because the idea was that we were going to have each other when we needed each other, almost just like buddies that kiss and then it suddenly became too much and I don't know what to do because when things like this happen you're the one I talk to. You're the one who makes me feel better and special but you're tired of doing that now and now I'm just... an island.